Christmas and doctor-y stuff.

Hey blog, how’s it going?

It’s 2016. 2016! This is the year I become a DOCTOR! School starts next week and I have 10 classes (TEN classes? Wait, I thought I was FINISHED with classes, because I’m going into clinic…so…what the heck?) and, as you may already know, I start clinic as well. Whoa. It’s getting real, my friends. I’m super excited, except about charting. Mostly because it’s in a wacky state of flux right now. We are initiating EHR (electronic health records) and ya know, change: It’s never easy. Also, they take forever to write out. Mostly I just want to talk to people and love on them and find out about their lives and help them on their way to happy, healthy places…so what’s up with this whole charting business? 😉 (But I digress, go here for more med school antics.)

Christmas was pretty amazing. I was under the impression that Santa wasn’t coming this year. Yeah, well…Santa showed up big time. It probably drove my sweetheart crazy waiting for me to get my lazy butt outta bed, because HE knew Santa had shown up. Weird. 😉 Anyway, you should know that I love this man and he made my Christmas a giant surprise full of happiness and hugs, which is always a superfun time.

I also got to go to Ohio to see my parents (because I have a car: #thankfulforever), and took a little side trip to Michigan to see Sister and Fam. My niece did my makeup (FUN!) and we watched Inside Out (ALLLL the emotions) and went rock climbing and ate good food (thanks, Daddy!) and sat around and relaxed. Perfect! You should know that my family is amazing and supportive and I could not be who I am today without them. ❤ And they also got me pressies. WHAT? I seriously thought it was No Santa Christmas, people. GOSH.

Love and peace and all the good things to you in 2016.

 

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Write down GOALS?

I suck at goal-setting.

I’ve learned many many times how to set goals, I just don’t do it. I know that writing down a goal makes it 432% more likely to happen. I know they should be realistic, measurable, blah, blah, blah…but I also know that I feel as though whenever I want something, the wanting pretty much guarantees that I won’t get it. Or it won’t last. (Leave me alone on the whole “well, with that attitude…”-crap, too…that’s a whole other days worth of issues; let’s focus here, ok?) So I’m doing this Rituals for Living thinger that my friend Aimee posted about on some form of social media and today is the first day. And of course, Day 1 = Write down your goals for Mental, Physical, and Emotional Health. So instead of that, I’m writing a blog post. But I’m going to do it. After I look up instructions for setting goals. Because obviously I’m doing it wrong. Or maybe it’s just scary to write down my heart. It’s pretty damn sturdy, my heart….but it feels awfully fragile to put myself out there. Again.

Just breathe, beautiful girl. You got this. As Glennon likes to say: You Can Do Hard Things. 

This one may not seem so hard for some of you, but it’s an exercise in faith and trust and doing scary things for me. 

Inhale. Exhale. Go.

Update: BaBK

So this “project” got kind of lost this term. I’m not sure why I didn’t
have the focus I had last year when I did this…maybe it’s just my feminine “diffuse awareness” hitting me hard? Maybe I just had a lot more going on mentally or emotionally or spiritually this time? Maybe I don’t need an explanation! Whatever it is, I did not reach the weight loss goal I set. Technically I have a couple more weeks, but I don’t see 20 lbs melting away in 2 weeks. That would be cause for alarm not cause for rejoicing in reaching my goal. Despite this, I am choosing to focus on the many good things that happened during this time. No regret, no being mean to myself about it, just a redirection of my thoughts to the positive changes I am making.

Dang, I wanted to list things out, but I have no idea where to start. The pressure of remembering things and writing them down…THE PRESSURE! :0) This is where I recognize the need to write the good things down as they happen. I’ll just say this: the past 4 months have been quite a roller coaster, but the overall vibe I feel while trying to remember specific events is, PROGRESS, NOT PERFECTION. Wow. That’s kind of enormous. And a way bigger life lesson than losing 27 lbs. Way to go me.

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Found it! My enthusiasm!

People may roll their eyes at me for saying it, but believing “I am beautiful” is a universal female struggle. Yes, ultimately we need to find it within ourselves to believe it is true, but being female, external assurance that I am absolutely correct is always helpful…and there is NOTHING WRONG WITH THAT. We were created to need each other. I believe that this is one way women need men. (Yeah, I’m weird enough to know that men and women have different needs.)

Gentlemen, go tell your daughters, sisters, mothers, wives, girlfriends that they are beautiful. It’s important for for us to hear it from you.

And share this video because it’s awesome.

(I’m not sure what I intended to write when I hit share, but apparently I had something to say about this. LOVE ME!)

Project: Build a Better Kirsten, v 2.0 – Update

So here we are in June. I had a wonderfully celebratory Birthday Week last week and am trucking along on my goal of -27 lbs. However, the goal has changed. I’d still like to lose those lbs, but 6 weeks ago I started The Betty Rocker Bodyweight Shred 30-Day Challenge. Ms. Bree’s program fell into my lap by way of an Instagram repost and BAM I was in on a circuit training, bodyweight challenge with everything spelled out and a supportive community to kick my arse with their encouragement and reality checks. It’s been really great for my entire state of being. Yippee!

Tri 4.3

Last year at this time it was Tri 2.2. “Tri” is short for trimester. I set a goal to lose 20 lbs and started into The Plan followed quickly by Whole30. I started walking and running more often. I had a pretty damn good attitude, on purpose, most days…I think. And I lost 20 lbs! It was kind of an exercise in mind-body medicine really.

So here I am closing in on May again , Summer Tri at NUHS. I gained only 7 of those lbs back but that’s pretty damn good for a 42 yr old stress-bucket who gave up on all semblance of Eating Clean at some point and went with Eating Food Because I’m Poor And Beggars Certainly Can’t Be Choosers.
This tri the goal is 27 lbs. 20 + the 7 I gained. Also I read on a website that 42 yr old women of my height felt most healthy and comfortable at my current weight minus 27 lbs. Coincidence? I think not. ;0)

Anyway, here I go. Nobody reads this, so I’m pretty safe saying damn well anything I like. That’s kinda fun.

Oh yeah, I also quit smoking.

August 30, 2014. I will weigh 27 lbs less than my current weight. Peace out, y’all.